February 2012
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oof. as if to keep things in perspective, i just heard from my friend who’s going to grad school in arkansas. she’s not coming home for break. which is a stone cold bummer.
plus, last year she broke up with her boyfriend that she thought she would marry - and she is now attending FOUR weddings this summer.
she is blonde and tiny and beautiful and kind and smart. her family is...
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oh my god, kung fu hustle is on right now, and i can’t sit and watch the rest of it because i have to do school work. (somehow i ended up on tumblr in this endeavor.)
i watched this movie back in 2004 with my sister. those were the days where i had purple hair and dated a white hippie boy with black dreadlocks and made questionable choices with drug experimentation. luckily none of that...
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“don’t feel sorry for yourself. only assholes do that.”
– haruki murakami, norwegian wood
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"and so it goes."
this has been a dark month for me. the depression has been a frequent visitor. once it brings me down, everything that bothers me normally that i try to ignore is amplified.
for example, my brother. at this point, i am certain that part of me actually hates him. maybe 15% of me. drug abusers are hard to love, especially when they go out of their way to find new potential ways to torture the...
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the more i think about it, it seems like i’m the type of person who fails and fails and fails, and then suddenly failure gets a little tired of me. and somehow i get out okay.
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“As time goes on, you’ll understand. What lasts, lasts; what doesn’t, doesn’t....”
– Haruki Murakami (via villainesss)
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i have a tendency to ramble in essay assignments. the guidelines said 1-2 pages. i spend half an hour editing myself to keep it in 2 pages.
an hour ago teacher sends out announcement that 3 pages is fine.
if this isn’t a symbol of my life somehow, i don’t know what is.
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“you are only as sick as the secrets you keep.”
– life
any good will i have with my mother is tested when she starts talking about guys and relationships and suggests i go on an online dating service.
i told her the conversation made me want to put my head through a wall. honestly, a part of me wants to never have children of my own just to end this shit here.
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i lied. i could not justify spending that money on concert tickets.
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“Rick Santorum sees Nazis everywhere: in the Middle East, in doctor’s offices and...”
– DANA MILBANK, “Rick Santorum Cries ‘Nazi,’” in the Washington Post.
Whether its Republicans calling for legalized rape in Virginia or one of their presidential candidates comparing Obama to Hitler, conservatives feel like they can never take things too far.
The GOP is fucking shameless.
(via...
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i guess i should be relieved to realize my overemotional state and high level of stress has to at least partly come from being in a hormonal time.
it does explain why i was so invested in that episode of gossip girl last night. i always related to blair and her rampant insanity, but never much cared for dan. it was odd to find myself squeeing like a 15 year old over a show i watch once every...
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“He [Rick Santorum] is a staunch opponent of abortion, even in the case of rape....”
– John Oliver on Rick Santorum, The Bugle 183 (via joaquinsphoenix)
it’s been a strange day. i went up there, and luckily b wasn’t there - which was a relief. so i got stuff done without being put into that particular emotional state. then i talked to rachel just to make sure i wasn’t going to be fucked over in a month or so. she assured me, that indeed, i was not.
then i got into an odd conversation with my mother today. basically about how...
i’m trying to read and study this chapter, but i have nicki minaj super bass stuck in my goddamn head.
which means every sentence i read is interrupted by a tiny voice in my head going, ‘can’t you hear that boom, daboom, boom, boom, badoom, boom, bass. he got that super bass…’
fuck.
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“The feelings that hurt most, the emotions that sting most, are those that are...”
– Fernando Pessoa (via ablazeandmeandering)
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Watch
“Daddy interrogates daughter to get a confession on who is her favorite parent.”
this is adorable, x10.
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“i expected times like this - but i never thought they’d be so bad, so frequent, and so long.”
jamie, upon opening refridgerator
(someone is having a bad day)
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“minds are like parachutes. just because you’ve lost yours doesn’t mean you can borrow mine.”
jamie
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crystal castles - not in love (feat. robert smith)
teacher finally graded that paper which ticked off my obsessive compulsive tendencies and caused me to spend at least an hour in front of the computer eating one piece of gum after another. got 2 points taken off for mysterious reasons. i now have a 91% altogether.
i fear my control issues are getting stronger as i grow older. it’s days like today that really make me miss cigarettes. when i...
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for the record, i hate biology. always have and always will. i forgot how much i hated science and math until i had to go back to studying some of this business.
i started reading this chapter and a part of my brain automatically goes, “nope. i cannot pretend to give a single fuck about understanding this.” i have to force myself into reading and re-reading this genetic stuff.
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“In contrast to this cautious, sensible approach to life and the rather traditional values which you hold, there is another figure in your inner psychic drama which you have had to exclude or suppress from your usual conscious expression in order to preserve the security and the socially acceptable image which are so important to you. There is something rebellious and rather wild inside...
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my mother’s birthday is coming up in a couple weeks. i know she’d love these cupcakes - they’re beautiful, and i’m sure, delicious.
i think i’ll try to make them, but i’m sure they won’t come out quite as nice.
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