"there's no rules or laws to unchain your life."

i have a couple of friends, jen f. and olivia, who honestly can and will,talk to me all day via...

Mon, 20 May 2013 22:50:45 -0400

i have a couple of friends, jen f. and olivia, who honestly can and will,talk to me all day via texts. i don’t mind it, but it does confuse me a bit. like they start at 10 a.m. and it ends at the earliest around 8.
jen is incredibly talkative so it makes sense, but olivia is more like me - not so huge on talking.
i appreciate that someone thinks of me, but it’s just… not something i normally do.

h4ilstorm: Downstroke (by BarryFackler)

Mon, 20 May 2013 22:50:31 -0400

h4ilstorm:

Downstroke (by BarryFackler)

"Whoever, at any time, has undertaken to build a new heaven has found the strength for it in his own..."

Mon, 20 May 2013 08:17:25 -0400

“Whoever, at any time, has undertaken to build a new heaven has found the strength for it in his own hell.”

- Friedrich Nietzsche (via le-coeur-retreci)

it's a terrible love and i'm walking with spiders

Sun, 19 May 2013 08:57:07 -0400

just no.

my sister implodes, the brother explodes. independently of each other, but conveniently in the same time period so it feels a little like you’re in the middle of a natural disaster. like a tsunami maybe?

neither want my help.and really, who am i to think i can fix anything? i don’t know what the fuck is going on. i have my own issues. and yet i don’t fall apart. i look at them and think, “we came from the same place. how is it that we can be so fucked in so many different ways from each other.”

my sister may be in serious trouble. her mental health has been in question for awhile. it has been slowly and then all at once. and we’re not sure what to do. it is quite frightening.

my brother is just up to his normal shit, which includes driving while under the influence of drugs. he broke a headlight hitting a post(?) in a goddamn parking lot. he has hit so many objects over the years … i don’t believe in any god but still pray that he will never hit a person. i can’t stop him.

i’m still fighting this cold and people keep making me cry so all the congestion gets all fucked up and i have a hard time breathing for the next 2 hours. and i closed last night and a dude left the beer cooler wide open all night. rachel had to send me a scary text about it at 6 a.m..

i have to be responsible for a dumb ass who can’t close a door now. i now have to assume everyone needs me checking after them there because it’s my fault if they don’t do the common sense shit. as if i don’t have a hard enough time keeping myself on track.

i just love my life so much right now. you have no idea.

kaidenii: Flowering Garden - Vincent van Gogh 1888

Sun, 19 May 2013 08:21:21 -0400

kaidenii:

Flowering Garden - Vincent van Gogh

1888

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blua: Underwater Dog Photos by Seth Casteel. Get the book...

Fri, 17 May 2013 19:39:29 -0400

blua:

Underwater Dog Photos by Seth Casteel.

Get the book here!

"Within the souls of the awkward and the overlooked often burns something radiant."

Fri, 17 May 2013 19:38:21 -0400

“Within the souls of the awkward and the overlooked often burns something radiant.”

- Jo Ann Beard (via larmoyante)

"I finally figured out that I’m solitary by nature, but at the same time I know so many people; so..."

Fri, 17 May 2013 18:19:52 -0400

“I finally figured out that I’m solitary by nature, but at the same time I know so many people; so many people think they own a piece of me. They shift and move under my skin, like a parade of memories that simply won’t go away. It doesn’t matter where I am, or how alone - I always have such a crowded head.”

- Charles de Lint, Memory and Dream (via larmoyante)

leslieseuffert: ”Czech photographer Miloslav Druckmüller from...

Fri, 17 May 2013 18:09:38 -0400

leslieseuffert:

”Czech photographer Miloslav Druckmüller from a pier outside the Enewetak Radiological Observatory on the Marshall Islands during a 2009 expedition hosted by the Chair of the Institute for Astronomy at the University of Hawaii.

It was during this trip that the photographer had the incredible opportunity to see a total solar eclipse from what is basically the middle of the Pacific Ocean. The location offered an unfettered, crystal clear view of this amazing and rare phenomenon.”

nevver: Peanuts

Thu, 16 May 2013 18:27:50 -0400

nevver:

Peanuts

i feel like death. going to bed at 8 while the sun is still up feels odd, but what else am i going...

Wed, 15 May 2013 20:13:06 -0400

i feel like death. going to bed at 8 while the sun is still up feels odd, but what else am i going to do? i have to wake up at 5 anyway.
being sick reverts me to a childlike state. i want someone to cuddle me while i shiver and cough and not care they will get sick as well. no takers for this position so far…

i have been around my brother a little bit more than usual the last few days. so of course he had to...

Tue, 14 May 2013 18:53:10 -0400

i have been around my brother a little bit more than usual the last few days. so of course he had to go and catch a cold, and i’m pretty sure i’m infected now. i feel loopy as fuck which is usually an indicator. i mean the dog scared me to death when she came downstairs. the end is nigh.

i almost don’t want to talk about it cause i feel like the other shoe could drop any day now, but … my brother quit drinking almost two weeks ago. although this is positive, it is much more complicated altogether.

he is still using and does not plan to quit. he has quit drinking briefly before but inevitably something, or nothing, would happen and he would start again.

at this point he is not using heavily either. so when he talks, he sounds like himself. he acts and walks like himself. but then it’s like he goes very far away for a long time so that even when you’re looking at him, you’re wondering, ‘where is phil? when will i see him again?’

i don’t know what my point is. that i can never lose hope for him? that even if he falls into that hole tomorrow, i have to believe he is capable of pulling himself out again? one day it might last.

I feel like shit, y’all. i am definitely sick. jesus, take the wheel already.

"I’m not fine as in fine, but fine as in you don’t have to worry about me."

Tue, 14 May 2013 17:45:09 -0400

“I’m not fine as in fine, but fine as in you don’t have to worry about me.”

- Dr. Gregory House (via muse)

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howiviewafrica: King’s love.

Mon, 13 May 2013 19:21:57 -0400

howiviewafrica:

King’s love.

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sarahthecuddlebug: iamautistic: letthesongtakeflight: littleda...

Mon, 13 May 2013 15:48:21 -0400

sarahthecuddlebug:

iamautistic:

letthesongtakeflight:

littledallilasbookshelf:

Inside Livraria Lello & Irmão in Porto, Portugal

THIS IS WHAT HEAVEN LOOKS LIKE

I’m actually crying over how beautiful this is! Although I’m sleep deprived so may be why…this is beautiful!

That staircase makes me indescribably happy